Unintended absence

Not much to report. Blogging for the heck of it at the moment. Not motivated at work- another year without a raise, or a bonus. I won't go into the reasons at the moment, suffice it to say I work for UnitedHealth Care and they care as much about their employees as they care about all the people they drop for pre-existing conditions. Record profits don't trickle down to the people that helped the company succeed.

I had worked from home for about 2 weeks during our bathroom renovation, and I loved it. I was much more motivated to work, despite the huge morale hit from the annual review. There's no flipping reason for me to be in the office 4 out of ever 6 weeks, however I won't be holding my breath for the answer that my boss is (supposedly) seeking from his boss about me working from home on any kind of regular basis.

But yay our bathroom is all new and wonderful! I really do love it. The transformation is fairly STELLAR.

I just got back into running, with the goal of running Cakes for a Cause's 5K in April. We'll see. Immediately back I'm running faster and with higher gait (as in I'm lifting my legs up more, not sure how to properly phrase that...) than I ever did before. Losing 20+ pounds really helps! Gee, whodda thunkit, LOL

Speaking of losing poundage, I've pretty much ended my relationship with Weight Watchers. I got sick and tired of cheese this and meat that. Plus the leader sucked butt however there were no other early morning options available except Sat- which I tried but there were about 10,000 members at that one and ya know who wants to commit to getting up that flipping early on a Saturday?? If Gayle ever moves back to town and does meetings there again I'm going back no matter what tho. She is the BEST.

It's been a rough winter, we're all lacking vitamin D and craving going coatless. If I must be forced to work from the office then I look forward to walking to work again. I miss all the wildlife and the peace.

Saw Ani DiFranco in concert this week thanks to a friend. MAN, I do not know how I managed to not see her in concert the past 18 years. Sometimes I am slow on the uptake haha!

Also, got my tix for 2 DMB shows this summer, one is for the VIP package, and although that's no guarantee that we'll get to meet the band, there is always hope. I know of no other way to even have a chance so I decided to lay out the dough and cross my fingers.

Saw Thievery Corporation too, thanks to the same friend who took me to Ani. I have promised myself to never miss them when they come around again. Easily one of my all time favorite bands now.

Some friends of mine have had their marriages fall apart. It's sad to see. Although ya know, it beats watching them stay with assholes and bitches, or watching them cheat because they're too spineless to shit or get off the pot. Divorce is a part of marriage like death is a part of life it seems sometimes. I don't mind the idea of dying- but the idea of my marriage ending? Fuck. That. I would lose my friggin marbles.

Some other friends of mine have been sharing how their futures are secure thanks to known inheritances. And I don't mean one or 2 friends, I mean a big handful, and you have to admit it's kinda weird to have so many friends who not only know they're coming into lots of money, but that all decide to tell you at the same general time, isn't it? I've had plenty of friends from college who are in the same position. At times it makes me feel.... like 'damn', ya know? My college was not paid for, nor my down payment on my first house, nor any of my cars, etc. I have no inheritance coming, in fact the one I was supposed to get got snatched up but I will reframe from the details here. We will be relying on ourselves for our retirement, and ourselves only. Having decided to not breed, we won't be relying on any offspring to help us out either (which is what my one aunt recommended and I just thought that was the most selfish thing I'd ever heard at that point). Anyway, I try not to think about it, because all it does is make me doubt, make me feel a little worthless, and I even get to thinking things like all of these people who have their futures financially secured already will not want to hang out with us x amount of years from now because we just won't rank. How pathetic is that to think?? SO yeah. I am much more blissful when not confronted with these thoughts. I just hope that another 15 years will pass before any more friends decide to tell us how they have shitloads of money coming to them and that they actually do not have to worry about their retirement.

Thank goodness it is Friday. Got one hell of a busy weekend ahead of me. Dinner, poker (thank goodnes! I'm going into withdrawal), 2 tattoos, a birthday celebration, a tattoo consultation (for my own ink), a brunch gig to go to that Mike's playing. Busy busy busy. But it beats working for Satan.

As far as eating and dealing? Nothing really very new to report. I love eating dairy free. I love not touching meat that has been to a slaughterhouse. And I have recently started to understand and accept the inherant superiority of those of us who know better. I think it's weak of people to say they 'don't want to know'- they don't want to know that they're eating shit (literally), they're contributing more to environmental destruction than they could possibly realize, they're causing untold amounts of cruelty, they're supporting an industry that abuses its workers, they're buying into the dairy is good for you lie when the complete opposite is true thus harming their own health, and on and on. Now when I read or hear about or see a vegan or an eater such as myself that does not have a label acting superior or self righteous, I don't cringe. I understand. Hey, at least I've given up on telling you all (as in, the world- in person) what you do not want to hear.